Moving Forward

Moving Forward

It’s always a little scary to do something new, but when it’s something you’ve been dreaming about and wanting for most of your life…  I think it’s okay to be a little scared – as long as you still do what you’ve been dreaming about all along.

It’s been amazing to me all the things that have happened that are making this dream possible. Some of the things I’ve experienced have not exactly been positive – like getting divorced, having my kids be away from me every other week, having to leave the fruits of my home, having my parents gone on a mission while all of this was happening, having seizures, and not being able to drive, dealing with the court system and worrying about money, trying to find and keep jobs, when all I really want was to be able to stay home with my children. There’s been so many hard challenges and things that that have happened that you would wonder how anything good could ever come out of it.

At the same time, I’ve had so many blessings and help from people than I ever could have possibly imagined. God has been working through others to help take care of me, send me love and offer assistance in so many ways that I have needed. Neighbors have kindly given me a home in their basement to live in. They have become my parents, while mine have been away and I will forever be indebted to them! Church members have cared for me and offered me rides and assistance when I was having my seizures and couldn’t take care of myself. So much love was offered when I couldn’t drive and needed so much help from others. My parents were able to Skype with me and help me emotionally as I needed them. My son has been well and happy on his mission. I’m building back trust with my children after a divorce, and things are starting to get a little better. I was given scholarships that allowed me to meet amazing people and receive mentoring that has helped me rediscover who I am. God has been taking care of me financially through jobs and others that he has brought me into contact with. I am making friends with other singles and know there is still hope of future happiness. The greatest blessing is that God is whispering that it’s okay to start sharing my music. It’s finally becoming that “season”.

I remember feeling the call to share my music earlier, but the whispering I kept getting from the spirit was that it wasn’t time yet. I needed to keep my focus on my children. It was frustrating then, I thought I could do both. How grateful I am that I listened and waited. With everything I experienced in the court system, it’s very possible that I might have lost custody of my children had I ignored the prompting. No one can dispute the fact that I was a vigilant, loving mother. My children have always been my priority, and they will continue to be.

I shared my “Beauty Queen” song on a live video on my Facebook page. People liked it and it gave me some courage that it would be okay to start sharing. I feel God’s hand directing my path. He’s got some plan for me, though I’m not exactly sure what it is yet. I was talking with some of my singer/songwriter friends that I used to perform with when my children were very young. We are all in the same type of place, feeling the call to share our music.

We’ve decided to start an inspirational music podcast. We’re going to do it on Facebook live. I’m so excited about it. I’ve always loved performing and sharing the stories behind my songs. It’s even more fun to do it with friends. I think people will like it.

I’d love to invite you to watch it on Facebook. Our first event is Sunday, February 5th. You can watch it from the comfort of your own home. Here’s the link for where to find it:

Thanks for being with me on this journey. I so appreciate all your support. Enjoy the music,


My Cinderella Moment

My Cinderella Moment

I turned into a princess last week and even lost my shoe along the way. Let me tell you the tale…

Earlier this week, some of my good friends invited me to a get together at a workshop that was supposed to be about public speaking and poise. It sounded like fun, but I didn’t know if I would be able to go.

I texted my friends, “I’ll see if I can. I’ll have the kids that day, but if I can get a ride – and a babysitter for my kids, and a dress I can wear… basically if my fairy godmother appears, I can for sure go!”

Immediately one of my friends texted me that she could give me a ride. Another told me about a dress I could wear. My daughter was willing to babysit and it seemed like somebody up above loved me.

We were told to dress fancy and that there would be lots of pictures taken. I don’t usually ever dress up, but I was excited to pull out a dress I’d kept in my closet for the last 5 years, waiting to be worn. It still even had the tag on.

My daughter drove me to Walmart, and I bought the fanciest fake necklace they had – for $5. They didn’t have any high heeled shoes that I liked, but I purchased a pair of black shoes and figured they would have to do.

That afternoon I dressed up as fancy as I could and was excited for the opportunity to be with friends and learn more about public speaking. I put a notebook in my purse and headed out the door.

When we arrived, we were surprised to find there were only seven of us there. Three of the girls were wearing pageant gowns.  We were encouraged to change out of our dresses and to change into pageant gowns ourselves. There were several to choose from. The gowns were amazing. I felt like a princess and I was even given a crown to wear as well!

I felt bad that my shoes didn’t work well with the gown, but that was fixed when my friend wanted to switch me shoes. My black shoes went well with her dress and her gorgeous, sparkly gold high-heeled shoes went perfect with mine. It was a dream come true!

14480664_10210370123400647_1204970661805547213_oThe workshop ended up being very hands-on. We each had the opportunity to present ourselves as a “titled” lady. I was given the title ‘Ms. South Jordan’. I tried to come up with a platform I could speak about, but it was a little bit of a struggle. Since then, I’ve thought about what I could speak passionately about. I have some ideas that I’ll have to talk more about in the future.

After spending some time in the gardens, we went to the high school where we could practice presenting ourselves on the stage. We were again crowned and given flowers. There was a photographer taking our picture. It truly was a magical, unexpected experience.

Near the end, I finally noticed the time. The event was supposed to be over at 4, but it was fifteen minutes to 5! The friend who let us borrow the dresses, told us just to keep them and to return them later. We switched back our shoes and tried to dash in our gowns back to the car.

The shoes I had purchased were too big for me and kept slipping off as I ran. I couldn’t help laughing at my fairy tale ending.

I barely made it back in time for my company that came at 5. Everything at home had gone well and the only part of the story I was missing was Prince Charming. I guess that will have to wait for another day!